the reflector..

Sitting here after dinner, unable to speak, I ponder on many things. I think of the many memories of Mongolia, both sweet and bitter, and I reflect on how this place has changed me. I go back home forever different, better in someways, worse in others, but changed in a whole. I have new experinces I will take to the grave, and those experices both enrich and haunt me. I will never forget Juul, the horses, the camels, the camp, getting mugged, everything.

I love to travel, I love to roam. I love to experince places, food and customs of countries. It has been a passion of mine for as long as I could ever remember. Mongolia has been an amazing adition to all my experinces, but I am ready for home. I am dreaming of Christmas! Church Service and all the activties that come along with the season. Caroling, concerts and of course youth camp. I can’t wait for camp! Its the one time of the year I can bond with close friends, get a chance to know some friends better and of course make new friends.

I had my dinner, I ate my Cajun pork rice. My belly is full, yet I feel empty and cold inside. The cold winter winds has blown into my bones, into my marrow, into the very depths of me. I need the hot Malaysia air, the humidity to fill my lungs. I need to wake up in my bed and turn on my astro on the weekends. I need to drive my faithful babe2, blast music on my cd player, and just go in any direction my little heart desires.

I need to talk to my friends. I need to be able to pour out my feelings to somebody and to get some kind of emotional responce. I don’t have a girlfriend or a specific person in my life, but I am blessed with many friends who I can spend time with and who can give me emotional support I need in life. I miss that! I miss talking to Yen, sarah, alvina, elisa, karen, to everyone. I just miss them all.

I need to go home, and I need to do it soon.

Its been a while since I actually wrote my own thoughts and feelings down on a blog. The-reflector.com is getting to many hits and I have clients, co-workers and strangers reading it everyday that I sometimes don’t write everything I want to write, in fear I may offend people. So here I am starting my own private site just to write what I feel. First post will be short. Off to watch volleyball game.